Tuesday, February 27, 2024

Happenings in the village

*****

Thanks to constant distractions and distractibility (two different things, I assure you), I have been reading Middlemarch for weeks. But unlike other times when it has taken me a long time to finish a book, I’m not in any hurry to get to the end. I’m completely absorbed in the goings on in Middlemarch and Lowick Manor and environs. Mr. Casaubon is dead, good riddance, and I have no idea what Dorothea will do now in her wealthy widowhood. Dr. Lydgate is up to his neck in debt, while his beautiful and spoiled wife Rosamond keeps spending money. Mary and Fred, who have always loved each other, have finally acknowledged this fact to one another, but this is no guarantee that things will turn out happily for them. And Mr. Brooke is standing for Parliament, but he’s not very good on the hustings, and I don’t like his chances. 

*****

My gosh, Rosamond. Mind your own business, girl. Handle your own problems - you have about 99 of them right now, and the codicil on the vile Mr. Casaubon’s will is not one.  

*****

OK, enough of what’s happening in Middlemarch. Let’s discuss what’s happening in Silver Spring. It’s Saturday morning, bright and sunny but cold. The cold isn’t bothering me, though, because I can see the light at the end of the proverbial winter tunnel. I actually mean this literally. I worked until almost 5 yesterday and thanks to a 5:52 sunset time, I still had plenty of time to go for a walk. It’s still going to be cold for a while (until after Memorial Day if the last few years are any predictor) but at least it’s not dark at 4:45 anymore. 

That’s the good news. The bad news is that I lost at Wordle today, just a day short of tying my all-time consecutive win streak of 103. My win percentage remains at 99% but now I have to start over on the consecutive game streak. Today is day 1. I’ll get it this time. 

*****

I have no idea how things are going to shake out for the widowed Dorothea Brooke Casaubon and her late husband’s distant cousin Will Ladislaw. If I were to make a prediction, I’d guess that Mary Garth and Fred Vincy are heading toward a happy ending, but Dorothea and Will will go their separate ways, each of them never knowing for sure if the other feels the same way about them. They are both highly principled - rigidly so - and brilliant but impetuous people who seem brave and fearless in most situations, but neither of them can bring themselves to declare their feelings until they’re sure that the other person feels the same. Someone has to say something first. Someone has to take the risk. I hope that one of them will speak up before it’s too late but I’m not optimistic. I think there’s only going to be one really happy love story at the end of this thing. 

*****

It’s Tuesday afternoon now, and I’m just finishing work for the day. I had planned on a walk but it’s gloomy and damp right now, and it’s going to rain any minute. That’s all true of course but what’s also true is that I’d rather read than walk right now. Middlemarch awaits, and now I’m really slowing it down. According to my Kindle “location in book” indicator, I’m about 85 percent finished and I’m already sad about having to leave it behind. I do have some other excellent reading lined up (including two books that I just bought right this minute because writing this paragraph reminded me that I wanted those books - this post just cost me $25) but no matter how good they might be, they won’t be as good as Middlemarch

*****

It was Zadie Smith who inspired me to read Middlemarch but it was Martin Amis who said that it was the best English language novel ever published. George Eliot was very obviously influenced by Jane Austen - her sharp but kind, witty but profound observations of human flaws and failings (and virtues and brilliance) were very Austen-like. But Middlemarch is modern in a way that no Austen novel really is. Her imagined world of competitive materialism, politics and punditry, careerism and ambition was very much of the 20th century (George Eliot died in 1880) and her analysis of the complex inner lives of her characters, especially the women but the men too, was way ahead of Freud and Jung and the rest of the early modern psychologists. George Eliot saw the future. 

LIke most 19th century novels, Middlemarch proceeds at its own pace and that pace is slow. But that doesn’t mean that things don’t happen. Even when I read just a page or two, something is going on on that page that is indispensable to the story, even if the thing that’s going on is happening exclusively inside a character’s head. Especially then, really. No words are wasted. Nothing is extraneous. And I know that I’m missing or forgetting details from the early chapters, but that just means that I’ll discover new things the next time. I can see myself re-reading Middlemarch, a little bit at a time and over and over again, for the rest of my reading life. Martin Amis was right. It’s just that good. 



Thursday, February 22, 2024

Champions

I’m almost finished writing my 2023 book list. Any day now! I might even publish it tomorrow. Maybe Wednesday. I’m this close. 

It’s Monday, the day after the Super Bowl. Taylor Swift, the inevitable Chiefs’ win, so-so commercials, and Usher on roller skates. I watched with friends, so the company was the best thing. But now we’re gearing up for the really important sporting event. This weekend, Marymount Swimming will try to defend its men’s and women’s titles at the NCAA Division III Atlantic East Conference Championship. A four-day college swimming extravaganza is about 100 times more fun than a six-hour football game. We can’t wait. 

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The psych sheet came out yesterday, and it’s just as we expected - our son is expected to do well, but he’s not seeded first in anything. This is a good thing - top seed in a championship meet is a lot of pressure. 

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And I finally finished my 2023 book list, a few days earlier than last year. It’s a nice feeling - freeing. Freedom from what, I don’t know, because no one pays me to write incompetent book reviews of books published years ago, and no one is banging on my door demanding my next review, and any deadline associated with this thing (the deadline was President’s Day FYI) is completely self-imposed, but self-imposed deadlines are the most stringent, are they not? I am my own harshest taskmaster. I should quit before I fire myself. 

With the books out of the way, all I need to do now is overpack for a three-night road trip, and then arrive at my hotel and realize that I brought all the wrong things. Well, that is what I usually do but I’m not doing it this time. I know exactly what we’ll be doing all day each day, and I know exactly what clothes to bring. It’ll be fine. It’s a swim meet, for crying out loud. 

*****

It’s Thursday morning now. I’m working for part of the day today, and then we’ll get on the road for the not-too-long but not-too-short drive to St. Mary’s City. It’s a little colder than I’d like but it’s clear and bright and a perfect day for a road trip. Our original plan was to travel on Friday, skipping the Thursday night and Friday morning sessions. Thursday night, we assumed, would be distance events, and the morning sessions are all prelims. But it turns out that Thursday night is a relay session and we are all about relays. So I’m taking a vacation day on Friday and we’re making this a three-night trip. I’m packed now. Yes, I’m packing a bunch of stuff that I probably won’t need but I don’t care. I’d rather have it and not need it than the reverse, and since this is a road trip and I don’t need to worry about airline luggage rules, I’m going to just bring everything and not stress about it. I wish I could travel without overpacking but packing light is just a habit, not a virtue. And now I can change my clothes if I want to. 

*****

It's 9:30 on Friday morning and ordinarily, I would be at my desk at home, writing a newsletter or making slides for a presentation or something. But it's day 2 of the AEC championship, so I'm in the stands at the St. Mary's College of Maryland pool, waiting for warm-ups to end, and the morning prelim session to begin. The only thing better than a swim meet is a multi day swim meet, and the only thing better than a multi day swim meet is a multi day swim meet whose morning prelim sessions begin at 10. 

Last night's relay session was a blast. The boys medley took second place in a close and exciting race and even though they didn't win, they held their second place seeding and broke the team record. Not bad for two sophomores and two freshmen. If they stick together they will be hard to beat next year. 

And it was kind of a perfect day. A beautiful drive, fast swimming and close finishes, a bomb playlist, a dinner that I didn't have to cook and then an evening of chill in a basic but clean hotel room. It was a good time. It was a whole vibe. 

*****

It's 7:30 on Saturday morning, my favorite time when I'm staying in a hotel. My husband is still asleep and I'm sitting with wet hair and hotel room coffee enjoying the quiet in the room and the traffic noise outside. Soon enough it'll be time to get in gear but there's no rush. The morning prelim session doesn't start until 10. 

The boys had a very good day yesterday. They didn't win every event or even close but what they did do was to swim fast enough in the prelims that the finals were stacked with Saints and when you finish in 2nd, 3rd and 4th in the finals, the points add up. They're ahead by a solid margin today but it's not over. There's still two whole days of competition. 

We went to Solomon's Island yesterday during the break between the prelims and finals. I had never been there even though it's a noted Maryland point of interest. That is always the way, isn't it? You miss all the interesting places that are right in your own backyard. 

The weather was just right for an outdoor afternoon. Clear and bright, February chilly but not cold, breezy but not windy - just right. We walked along the waterfront and looked at boats and had lunch in a dockside seafood restaurant and visited a local shop owned by an elderly couple who noticed my husband's Marymount swimming hoodie and told us all about their own son, now in his 50s, who was also a high school and college swimmer. That's Maryland. Any room containing Maryland parents will include at least one person who will tell you all about their child's swimming career. These are my people.

It was supposed to snow overnight, and I think it did at home, but Southern Maryland just got some rain. The morning started cloudy and gray and now the clouds are blowing away, yielding to the sunshine. We just pulled into the parking lot at MPOARC. It's time to go. It's time for another great day of swimming. 

*****

It's Sunday morning now, the fourth and final day of AEC Championships, and I'm a little sad to see it end. It's been the most fun weekend. My son finished third in the 100 Breaststroke final last night, and then his 400 medley relay swam a conference record time, but St. Mary's 400 medley was a little faster. And that's fine because they still came away with silver medals and a program record for the event. Two silvers and a bronze in his first conference championship is not too shabby. He has one more race today. More importantly, the Marymount boys are in a very good position this morning, points wise. That's all I'll say about that. 

The campus of St Mary's College of Maryland is really beautiful. Most of the buildings are red brick with slate roofs, connected by diagonal brick walkways across grassy quadrangles, some with pergolas over the entrances and some covered with new ivy. The campus is situated on the Chesapeake Bay, surrounded by pine forests, and studded with tiny nooks of natural beauty. The architecture is reminiscent of classic American Ivy League college campuses but more modern and welcoming and democratic. There's no mystique, no air of privilege or exclusion. It's just a beautiful place. 

But it's cold here, too. We're staying in Lexington Park, ten minutes away, and it's always so much colder here because of the wind from the bay. It's relentless, that wind. 

*****

A college championship swim meet lasts for four or five days and if you’re lucky enough to be able to attend for the entire meet, then you’re going to make some new friends. It’s like that one wedding where you became instant friends with everyone, and maybe you don’t see them again or keep in touch with them regularly, but you think of them fondly. The connection remains. We have been making friends with Marymount parents throughout the year because we are within two hours’ driving distance of most of the meet venues. But we have swimmers from Florida, North and South Carolina, Minnesota, New York, Washington State - all over. And so some of the parents at Conferences were seeing their first Marymount meet of the season, and meeting other parents for the first time. We ran into some of them in our hotel, easily identifiable in the coffee line with their bright blue Marymount shirts and hoodies. Others we met in the natatorium, or in local restaurants for lunch or dinner. We also made friends with rival team family members, including a lovely Cabrini grandmother whose senior granddaughter was swimming in her last-ever meet. She told us that she was rooting for Marymount, except in her granddaughter’s events, since Cabrini had no chance to win the meet. 

*****

Disappointment is part and parcel of every athlete’s life, and my son had a hard reminder of that fact thanks to a rough prelim in the 200 breaststroke. He swam a great time, but two others who were seeded to finish behind him swam their best ever times, leaving him in fifth place rather than third. He was crushed. But disappointment is a set-up for a comeback and he came back strong in the final. All five of the top qualifiers swam best-ever times again, and my son dropped enough from his previous personal best to finish back in the top three. His final medal count was two silvers and two bronzes. 

And that was great, but it wasn't the best thing. The best thing is that both the boys and the girls finished first to win the entire meet, and we got to watch the celebration, 40 happy swimmers crowding onto the podium, posing with their medals and their brand-new t-shirts and hats. The celebration almost went sideways when one of the boys who ambushed the head coach with a Gatorade cooler full of ice water slipped on the ice and banged his head on the way down, but he’s fine, thankfully. Soaked from the ice water bath, the head coach jumped into the pool, followed by the assistant coaches, and followed by the rest of the team. We parents stayed on the deck, taking photos and hugging and saying our goodbyes. 

*****

Last year, the Rockville High School boys’ swim team won the Maryland Public Secondary School Class 3A state championship. Four of the eight boys who represented Rockville in the state meet were seniors, and all four seniors went on to swim in college. Three of the four colleges (Marymount, Catholic University, and Stevens Institute) won their conference championships last week, and the fourth (Indiana, the only D1 of the four) will swim in the Big Ten conference championship next week. They could win, making it four for four. I’m strangely invested in this now, and I’m very much hoping that at least some of the meet will be broadcast on TV in between basketball games. I don’t care about March Madness but I’m an Indiana fan  for now, until after the Big Ten men’s swimming championship is over. Swim fast, Hoosiers. Swim fast. 


Wednesday, February 14, 2024

Bibliography 2023

I bought my first Kindle in 2016. I’d had a Barnes and Noble Nook and loved having an e-reader but more and more I found that books that I wanted were available only on Kindle so I finally caved to Amazon. Almost every book I’ve read since 2016 has been in Kindle format, including almost every book on this list except Mrs. Obama’s (hardback, a Christmas present from my son). 

Say what you want about Amazon, but Kindle e-readers are awesome - compact and light, easy to use, dependable, and nice to hold and carry. I’ve had at least three phones since 2016, and I had to replace a 3-year-old Chromebook last year, but the Kindle kept on keeping on, until just a few months ago. It wasn’t charging consistently, it didn’t hold a charge, and sometimes I had a hard time connecting to wi-fi networks away from home. So when my husband asked me what I wanted for Christmas, I asked for the newest Kindle and asked him to pay the extra $20 for the ad-free version. The new Kindle was wrapped up under the tree on Christmas morning, and it’s so pretty - a light green color that looks beautiful with the case, even lighter and quicker than the old one, and it charges on a USB-C cable so I can use the same charger for all of my devices. And it has all of the advantages of the old one, too. It fits in almost every handbag I own, so I can read wherever I am. This year, I read wherever I was - in between baseball game innings, waiting for swim meets to begin, in the dentist’s office, on the beach, in planes, trains, and automobiles. Here are all (most) of the books I read in 2023. 

The Light We Carry - Michelle Obama. 

Child 44 and The Secret Speech - Tom Rob Smith. I read these early last year and was thinking about them and all of my other reading about the horrors of Soviet totalitarianism under Stalin when I heard the news that Alexei Navalny is imprisoned in a penal colony inside the Arctic Circle. I hope he survives. I hope he outlives Putin. 

On Beauty, Intimations, and Changing My Mind - Zadie Smith. Zadie Smith is my 2023 Author of the Year. I know she's excited about this. 

The Country Girls (trilogy) - Edna O’Brien. This was the beginning and end of my foray into the literary work of Edna O'Brien. 

An Unsuitable Attachment, Some Tame Gazelle, A Glass of Blessings, and Jane and Prudence - Barbara Pym. I can’t get enough of Barbara Pym, but I’ve read almost all of her work and sadly, there won’t be any more. Zadie Smith was my Author of the Year, but Barbara Pym earns Honorable Mention. 

Snobbery, The American Version - Joseph Epstein. Since 2020 or so, my social media feeds have been full of influencers urging women to jettison any and all unpleasant tasks and responsibilities and interactions. I have very mixed feelings about this trend. On the one hand, it's certainly true that most of us are doing things that we don't really need to do, and that don't really bring value to anyone. If ironing or canning preserves or maintaining your roots makes you miserable, don't do those things. They're unnecessary. Superfluous. On the other hand, there are many necessary and important things that we have to do, whether we want to or not. Doing things you don't want to do is part of adulthood. But listening to music you don't like or finishing a book you hate are not necessary or important things and you should feel free to turn off the radio or close the book rather than waste one more moment of your mild, precious life (see what I did there), and you shouldn't feel bad about this. Snobbery was one of the few (and the only one in 2023) books that I have started and deliberately didn’t finish, and I have absolutely no regrets about that decision. 

Wrinkles - Charles Simmons. Absolutely bananas. I have no recollection of how this ended up in my library, nor any recollection of plot details. I read it mostly at night, as I was falling asleep, which added to the story's bizarre and dreamlike quality. And it was not good. I did not enjoy it. And that is all I have to say about this ridiculous book. 

Red Notice and Freezing Order - Bill Browder. I still worry that the Russians will get Bill Browder one way or another. If Trump ends up in the White House again, he'll probably wrap the poor man up and ship him to Moscow as a gift to Putin. Maybe Canada will offer asylum.  

Here are three extremely dissimilar books that I happened to read one after the other, and wrote about in one post, right here

  • Two Souls Indivisible - James Hirsch
  • Against Memoir - Michelle Tea
  • American Prometheus - Kai Bird and Martin Sherwin. Definitely a job for two authors. 

Enough - Cassidy Hutchinson. I was thinking about what I wrote about this book this morning, as I watched news coverage of Nikki Haley's outraged reaction to Donald Trump's "where's her husband" taunts at one of his stupid Klan rallies. Mr. Haley is of course a National Guardsman who is currently deployed and although Ms. Haley's outrage is justified, I must also point out to her (because I'm sure she's reading this) that he's the same Donald Trump now that he's always been, just with fewer marbles and more loose screws, and he's spewing the same kind of garbage and vitriol as ever, and you supported him then, and what's the difference now? Don't pretend that you know who he is now but you didn't know who he was then. You're too smart for that. 

The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath. I managed, as a white woman who studied English at an East Coast university in the 1980s AND who attended high school at an all-girls institution, to avoid The Bell Jar. It was never assigned in a class, and I never thought of reading it on my own. I probably thought, at some point, that I should try to read The Bell Jar one day; I should put that book on my list. The thing is that I’m 58 now, and it’s definitely time to recognize that things I haven’t done, places I haven’t gone, books I haven’t read may well remain undone, unvisited, unread. I don’t have forever. I won’t get around to everything. So I read The Bell Jar, and have very little to say about it except that it’s probably not ideal reading for a person already in the throes of a mental health crisis, and except that even a person who is legitimately mentally ill can also be a jerk. Those things can coexist, and they do in the person of Esther Greenwood, The Bell Jar’s protagonist, who is spoiled and petulant and often pointlessly cruel. It’s hard to root for her but oddly, you do root for her. Annoying protagonist aside, I’m still glad I read the book (although I definitely won’t read it again - once was enough). I’m fascinated with these relics of mid 20th century exceptionalist postwar America, the time in which I was born and raised and that I thought was as solid and immovable as the ground beneath my feet and that I now know was fleeting and temporary. And it is filled with carelessly beautiful writing. And it’s a classic, I suppose, and so there’s one more of them that I can cross off my list. 

Say Nothing - Patrick Radden Keefe. I read this in 2019, but I read it again this year. I was in Cleveland and had just finished reading a book, but I couldn’t download a new book because my old Kindle wouldn’t connect to any non-home Wi-Fi network. I never mind re-reading a book that I love, and I had also just returned from Belfast, so it was the perfect time to read this, with the memory of the Falls Road and the Divis Tower fresh in my mind. 

Howards’ End - E.M. Forster. This really counts as another Zadie Smith book because I wouldn’t have thought to read it had Zadie Smith not urged me to do so. Last year, when I read Zadie Smith’s novel On Beauty, I learned (maybe from the introduction or maybe from a review, I don’t remember) that On Beauty is a modern-day retelling of Howards’ End. Zadie Smith is out here writing fan fiction, and I’m all for it.  But I read Howards End months after I finished On Beauty, and so had forgotten completely that it was it was based on Howards End and so when I reached the part when Mrs. Wilcox invites Margaret Shlegel to visit, I had a moment of literary deja vu, and then I remembered why that scene seemed so familiar. Thanks to Zadie’s E.M. Forster essay in Changing My Mind, I’ll be reading a lot more E.M. Forster next year. I'm also smack in the middle of Middlemarch, which is great, because of course it is, because Zadie Smith says so. Zadie Smith has convinced me to read Philip Roth, E.M. Forster, George Eliot, and who knows who else? When it comes to books, I do whatever Nora Ephron and Zadie Smith tell me to do. Neither Nora nor Zadie have ever steered me wrong when it comes to literary recommendations.

Friends, Lovers, and the Big Terrible Thing - Matthew Perry. 

Between You & Me: Confessions of a Comma Queen - Mary McGrory 

Ex-Wife - Ursula Parrott. Ex-Wife was a bestseller in 1929 and then it disappeared into literary obscurity. Then the internet discovered it and all of a sudden, my newsfeeds were filled with think pieces about this book and its modern-day relevance. I can imagine how shocking it might have been to an early 20th century audience (lots of adultery and domestic abuse). And I can also see why it was a bestseller. It’s a page-turner, and it depicts a life of freedom and glamour and independence - and yes, loneliness and grief and despair - that would have been unfamiliar to most women of that time. I wouldn’t call it a great novel but it’s certainly a worthwhile read especially if you’re interested in early 20th century New York (and who isn’t). I think I’d be interested in reading a biography of Ursula Parrott. Maybe I’ll do that this year. Check back with me around February 2025. 

Oath and Honor - Liz Cheney. As with Cassidy Hutchinson’s book, I pre-ordered this and read it the moment it showed up in my library. And as when I read Cassidy Hutchinson’s book, I didn’t learn much that I didn’t already know (I followed the J6 hearings pretty closely) but I wanted to read a personal perspective from someone who lived the investigation and the hearings day in and day out. No matter what you think of Liz Cheney’s politics (I disagree with her about almost everything), she’s an American hero, and I hope she remains in public life in some capacity.

Every Day is a Gift - Senator Tammy Duckworth. I read this for work - my boss was introducing Senator Duckworth at an event, and I was drafting remarks for him. I read her book so that I’d know something about her other than that she is a Democratic senator from Illinois. I ended up reading this in about a day, during my early summer bout with COVID. Senator Duckworth has an amazing and inspiring story, and she tells it very well. I recommended the book to a very conservative friend who likes military biographies and memoirs, and she was impressed. Tammy Duckworth is a uniquely American figure, the child of an American father and a Thai-Chinese mother; born in Thailand and raised there and in Malaysia and Singapore and Hawaii. She spent her early childhood in comfort and security; and then when her father lost his highly paid job as a property manager, the family fell abruptly into poverty. An excellent student and athlete, the young Tammy joined the Army for the secure pay, benefits, and tuition assistance; and then she found that she was born to be a soldier. She would likely have remained in the Army, ascending to high rank, had she not lost her legs in the attack on her helicopter in Iraq in 2004. 

I didn’t set out to read a series of  of heroic American women's memoirs, but I did set out to read a lot of Zadie Smith and Barbara Pym. Everything else on this list is random, just a bunch of books that found their way into my Kindle queue. There’s a nice serendipity to just reading what’s available and in front of you. It’s like listening to old-fashioned radio. You never know when you’ll hear that one song that you’ll want to sing along to forever. 

*****

A few days ago I saw a social media post that said something about how it doesn’t matter if you read a paragraph, a page, or a book every day - as long as you’re reading something, you can call yourself a reader. By the way, this also applies to writing. Sometimes I write three sentences and sometimes I write two or three pages in one sitting, but I write every single day and that makes me a writer. Anyway, even though I don’t need validation from social media strangers (or at least that’s what I tell myself), this message was strangely comforting - some days, I’m so distracted (by scrolling inspirational social media content, for example) or so busy that I only read a few pages, and I wonder if I’ll get through more than a handful of books this year. A handful of books would be fine if they’re the right books. I think I read somewhere around 30 books last year - yes, I could just count but I’m pretty sure that I read at least one or two that I forgot to write down. I just finished my fourth book of 2024 (it was a long one) so I’m not quite on the 30 per year pace for this year but who cares. That’s just fewer books for which I have to write meandering and incoherent reviews for next year’s book post. See you in 2025. 



Saturday, February 10, 2024

Carrying light

We are about to begin the second week of February. This is when I always decide that it’s time to finish my book list for the prior year, but I still have to finish writing about a few books. I started writing about Michelle Obama’s The Light We Carry early last year, just as I finished it, and then I started writing about other things and I forgot all about it. 

Note: My whole life could be accurately summed up in sentences that go exactly like that last one: “I started doing (ABC) and then I started doing (XYZ) and I forgot all about (ABC).” 

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Last year (meaning 2022), we went to Florida for a few days right after Christmas. We went for just four nights, and flew home on New Year’s Day 2023. This was not a trip planned by me and I wasn’t on board with the idea at first because first of all, Florida; and secondly, I don’t really love traveling during the holidays other than a quick overnight to Philadelphia.  

Not only was I not on board with the trip, I actually really dreaded it. It was Florida during Christmas week, so I expected a worst-case scenario of flight cancellations and missed connections and being stranded in an airport or forced to rent a car and drive home from somewhere far below the Mason-Dixon line. I also really like being at home during the Christmas holidays, and I didn’t want to give that up. But my husband convinced us that we should get away and that we’d have a good time, and so we drove home from an overnight visit to Philadelphia, packed our bags, and the next morning, a friend drove us to Glenmont Metro, where we got on a train to Reagan National Airport. 

It was on the Metro ride that I started to feel a little bit better about the trip. For once in my life, I hadn’t overpacked (taking Metro to the airport is a very effective overpacking deterrent) and it had been terribly cold for a few days, so I was happy about getting out of the cold, if nothing else. The flight took off on time and landed on time, and we had no trouble summoning an Uber. And then we walked out of the terminal at Tampa airport and stepped into the Florida sunshine, and I was so happy to be there; happy with my whole body. Traffic from the airport to our hotel was dreadful (Tampa is no joke) but I didn’t care because I had never been there before and it was nice to see new sights. 

The next morning, far from home and work and school with no household chores or other responsibilities, we left the hotel and just walked around Clearwater Beach, getting the lay of the land, visiting shops and strolling on the beach and stopping wherever we liked to see a sight or to have a drink and a snack or to buy a silly souvenir. We put our feet in the chilly Gulf of Mexico, collected shells, and just sat around in the sun. When we returned to our hotel, we swam in the pool and I sat on a lounge chair wrapped up in towels and a hoodie, and I read like there was no tomorrow. That was a good vacation. 

The last book that I read during the trip was Michelle Obama’s The Light We Carry, and it appears on my 2023 list because I finished it on New Year’s Day on the plane ride home.  It was my 2022 - 2023 crossover book, and the only book that I read last year that was on actual pages between actual covers (ir was a Christmas present from my son). 

I hardly remember a thing about the book itself, except for some funny stories about Michelle Obama’s older brother. It was vacation reading and I experience vacation books differently from books that I read during odd moments of everyday life. Vacation reading has a dreamlike quality - vacations are the only time when I read like I used to read when I was young, as though the book and I are the only things that existed. Thinking back on it now, the whole trip had a dreamlike quality; a few sun-drenched days when I really truly didn’t think about anything that I needed to do. I just swam and walked and slept and ate and read in Florida’s winter warmth and sunshine. A few days in the sunshine can get you through the darkest time of year. It’s like a light you can carry through the winter.  


Monday, February 5, 2024

Fast Car

 “Who the heck is that?” 

“Get the hell out of here. You know who that is.” 

“Hand to God I have no idea.”

That was my husband and me; him learning that the elderly hippie with the cane is Joni Mitchell and me learning that my husband managed to reach his mid 50s having never heard of Joni Mitchell. He wasn’t kidding. My husband is Korean and his parents only ever listened to classical music at home, and so he has no clue about any American music recorded before 1980 or so. I sang a little bit of “Big Yellow Taxi” for him, and now he knows that Counting Crows didn’t invent that song. 

*****

Yes, I watched the Grammys last night. I never watch the Grammys but apparently, I have become a Swifty; and I had to see Taylor perform. I didn’t see her perform (and I haven’t read recaps so I don’t know if she did) but I did see her accept one of her Grammys. And as much as I love Taylor now, she was not the highlight of the show. She wasn’t even close. 

“Fast Car” has been one of my favorite songs from the moment I first heard it in 1988. It stopped me in my tracks - it was so different from anything else on the radio in that Madonna and Michael Jackson dominated era. I never get tired of hearing “Fast Car.” That song never gets old. 

I’m not a country music fan and by that I mean that I actively dislike most non-Johnny Cash non-Patsy Cline country music. Don’t @ me. And so no one was more surprised than me when I heard Luke Combs’ cover of “Fast Car” and liked it immediately. I liked the cover for itself and I loved Luke Combs because he so obviously loves Tracy Chapman and he was so happy to have revived her song for a new generation of listeners. 

It’s so rare that you get to see a perfect performance - filled with love and joy but also musically flawless, but that is what Tracy Chapman and Luke Combs did last night. Combs was obviously in awe that he was on the Grammy stage, singing with Tracy Chapman, who beamed at him throughout like a proud mother. Everything is trash right now; only it isn’t, not when you get to see Tracy Chapman and Luke Combs sing “Fast Car.” 100/10. No notes.